Must try harder

I failed this week. Big time. It was only my second week of the diet and I've already GAINED!


Last week was really awful and when I get stressed I head straight to the junk food. I just can't help myself. It's something I need to deal with and until I do then I'm not going to lose weight. My husband, rather than helping to cook at night, would rather go to the take away and it's an easy way out.


I've always been one for comfort eating and it's my downfall. It's really hard to stop and I know that it undoes all the hard work of exercising. I was tempted to make my excuses tonight and not go to class but then I would have missed the exercise and I'd be in no better position.


Kay was, thankfully, really kind and rather than telling me off she offered some words of encouragement and motivation. 


I am really determined to lose weight this week, and quite a bit of it. I just need to put my mind to it and not head for the snack cupboard every time something gets tough.


Maybe I need something to give me that motivation, that extra little push. If I had someone to go with I think that would help keep me motivated but all my friends are Skinny Minnies!


Any words of advice would be much appreciated!




PS. I gained 1lb :(

Success is....

....wonderful!!


After a dreadful morning I was very pleased to see that I'd lost 4lbs this week!


I went to class feeling slightly apprehensive (and heavy), with my lame excuses at the ready, but I was pleasantly surprised to find out I'd done so well. 


Kay was well aware that I'd struggled this week, through reading this blog, but it actually felt good for the truth to be known. I don't like lying to anyone, but when it comes to weight loss and diets I'm quick to make excuses and fool myself.


So, after this I was feeling rather smug with myself and even more so when I was presented with a Slimmer Of The Week certificate. Something so simple made me smile and made me so happy. It really made my day. It also made me realise that I CAN do it if I put my mind to it. Simple and obvious, but it ought to become my mantra so that I don't forget.

I enjoyed the workout immensely, despite being a little uncoordinated at times but I wasn't the only one. No-one is made to feel bad for missing a beat, and even the instructor gets a little confused sometimes!! 


Kay & her husband Ian who helps out at class are so welcoming & friendly that I look forward to attending. It's something Slimming World couldn't ever do for me. We were sat in a small room, and made to feel even smaller by the group leader when she questioned you over a gain or no loss. She offered no inspiration or friendly words and Rosemary Conley classes couldn't be more different.


I know that it's still early days but I have a great feeling about the future!

Hmmmmm......

So, nearly at the end of the first week of the 'new lifestyle' and it's time to see how I've done.


I walked into the Rosemary Conley class feeling quite positive. Kay recognised me from last year and was really welcoming. I was pleasantly surprised to find out that I weighed 3lbs less than my scales tell me (time for some new ones!)


The exercise element of the class was fun but hard work. Well, I say hard work, it wasn't too bad but I was all over the place. I'm not the most co-ordinated person and I was struggling to keep up at times. It's amazing how soon you can forget your left and right when trying to follow an aerobics class.


I walked home, in the rain, still feeling positive but my goodness my legs ached by the time I reached home!


I sat down to read through the book and then started to panic! The fat-attack fortnight means 1200 calories a day and as I've been eating so much junk lately I knew I would struggle. The first few days though haven't been too bad. I've been trying my best to swap my snacks for fruit and my meals have been quite close to what is allowed. I've failed a few times this week as I've not been able to cut out the chocolate completely straight away but I was pigging on many bars a week (okay, a day!)


On Wednesday I cycled to the High School for my LBT class. I was looking forward to getting out after a tough day with the children but I'd walked a few miles to school, preschool, home etc and my hip and knee were already painful. The routine was different this week and much, much harder for me. I had to sit quite a few moves out because I just couldn't get my left leg into position. I spent most of the night awake, close to tears because of pain. I'm now re-thinking my LBT class. I know exercise is meant to push but I'm fairly confident that it shouldn't leave you in excruciating pain! I'm going to give it another go this week and if I'm still in pain I'll try a different class. I'd really love to try Zumba because Molly could attend classes with me and it sounds like great fun but I think it might be too high impact for me.


After a not entirely successful week I'm still looking forward and keeping positive. It may only have been a week but I have SO enjoyed my me-time! It's a great excuse to get out, have a break from being Mummy, and get fit at the same time.


Onwards and upwards!!

Tempting fate?

Well, tomorrow brings the start of a busy week and a new way of life (if I stick to it!)


Although it was only a couple of weeks ago that I said that I wouldn't join a dieting club I have realised that I'm not going to lose weight without the shame of being weighed weekly and the motivation of going to a club on a regular basis. I just don't have the willpower or determination to go it alone.


I have now hit my heaviest weight ever and I can't go on. I'm getting tired easily, yet not sleeping properly. It won't do me any good and it'd not good for my children to have an unfit, overweight, lethargic Mum.


I'm going to go to Rosemary Conley slim & exercise classes because I need the exercise as well as sensible eating. It's common sense really. To have it in one class makes it easier for me too.


I'm also aiming to carry on with my LBT classes, in spite of skipping the 2nd one!


It means 2 nights out a week instead of sitting on the sofa and having to get organised with regards to the children and Nigel at night time. From couch potato to exercise freak in one easy move! Yeah right ;)   I'll be walking or cycling to classes which will be extra exercise too. Admittedly in the winter I may cheat and get a bus :-)


I'm slightly worried about tempting fate because I joined Slimming World in 2006, did really well losing just under 2 stone in 5 months and then I fell pregnant. I joined Rosemary Conley in September 2009 and 2 weeks later gave up as I had been very, very sick and then discovered I was pregnant! There's been a bit of a pattern there!!


So, I'm full of motivation at the moment but I need a good kick up the backside when I start to lose that momentum.


To give me that extra push I'm going to post my weight weekly. I'm embarrassed of what I weigh so hopefully seeing it in print will shock me into doing the best that I can.


So here goes......weight as of 5th September: 14st 6lbs :(

Is 6 weeks too long?

So here we are. The night before school term starts and I'm left wondering where the time has gone.


In June it seemed like a long time ahead to keep 2 young children happy (not to mention the baby!) July 22nd soon came around and the first week off was wonderful. It was such a relief not having to do the school run or face certain people at the school. It was a relaxing week gearing up for our Norfolk holiday. The holiday came, was enjoyed, but soon passed. Before I know it it's the 1st September and it's all over.


I'm lamenting the end of the holidays for many reasons;


I'll miss having all the children at home together, we're heading into Autumn and I hate leaving the summer behind, we didn't do a lot of the things we had in mind, we never caught up with all of our friends and after the horrible end to last term I don't want to go through all that again. 


Molly is looking forward to school. She wants to see her friends and she's excited about being in a new year/class and with a new teacher. I just hope that her tormentor doesn't start up again. I'd like this to be a new start all round.


Last summer we were kept busy with the Heart Family report and we were out almost every day, all day and although I missed the children it was nice to get back to normality. This year I'm craving my routine but would still like the children to be around. In 18 months time Charlie will also be at school so I'll see even less of him.


For me, 6 weeks is definitely NOT too long.